today is the first monday of my workday.
it's my 4th day since last field break.
another 10 days to go on field break.

i had a good time with my girlfriend a whole week! :)
everyday i met her, i picked her up at the office, lunch together, round and round..
wow..it's so..wow.. i mean, i never done this before when i'm in jakarta with her.
i have had 2 weeks in jakarta before but we've done nothing like this.

i don't know..maybe it's because my feeling for her is growing bigger these days.
i don't want to loose her.
i want something that can put us together forever.
but i have a problem..that it very hard to solve.
we are in different religion.. :(

she tried to make me believe her religion.
and i want the same for her..but i haven't done anything..yet.
i know i can't go with her believes.
i do want her go with mine, and i pray everyday for it.
i want us to be together..in marriage.
i want to take care of her, love her, have a children with her.
this obstacle is giving me a hard time.
sometimes i feel i have to let her go..but it's too hard to let her go.
to let everything we had gone..

i know life has to move on, we have to move on.
maybe God wants me to be like this, so i can get a better one.
a girl who's like her and with the same believes like me.
right now..i don't know what i think.
maybe i just drifting away with what i feel right now.
i do want to marry her as much as she wants me to marry her.
i love her so much..
and i know if i keep doing like this, it would be harder and harder for her to forget.
and so am i..

i just hoping that God can help me with this.
are we supposed to be together?
is she the one for me?
or if i let her go, there will be someone who better than her?
God knows everything, and He know what to do with me.
i just carried away..and drifting..

God help me...